I’ve got good news and bad news. The good news is God brought me to a special place in Sarasota so I could learn something new about faith. The bad news is I thought I already had that part figured out. Has that ever happened to you?
It’s kind of like those drivers who were frantically yelling at John Candy in Planes, Trains and Automobiles, “YOU’RE GOOOOOING THE WROOOOOONG WAAAAAAAAY,” and I just now realized “Ooo they’re not drunk, I am, in fact, going the wrong way.
In this challenging season, I’ve been bouncing from the extremes of doing too much and not doing enough. All the while, God continues to speak one simple word to me……Faith. He wants me to believe in His Good Plan for my life.
Jer 29:11: For I KNOW the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you HOPE and a Future.
I thought I understood what this meant because I’ve taken giant leaps of faith in my life. I’ve been trained to have faith more than anything else! For example, I learned that trying to make something happen in my own strength is an obvious lack of faith. So I put my fears, concerns and needs in God’s hands and left it there….so I thought!
Ding Ding Ding…..
That’s where I went wrong! God showed me I wasn’t actually putting it in His hands…I was IGNORING IT! I turned my back on the issues that were too big for me and ran! Every time fear would try to surface, I would switch my optimism dial “on” with the power of my faux faith. It took me a long time to realize these fears were warning lights on the dashboard. Something was festering below the surface! I –thought- by putting it out of my mind I was leaving it in God’s hands. Instead, the most important issues in my life were being completely ignored.
My Faux Faith led to Faux Peace. I’ve had a peace about where I am in Sarasota and life but I haven’t had a peace about how I’ve handled everything. I was starting to shut down and I didn’t understand why. It was kind of like floating in a sea of faux peace and becoming comfortably numb. Then I would “wake up” and realize I hadn’t done enough and I would desperately try to catch up. I would get frustrated with God because it didn’t seem like he was helping me. And then I would hear in my heart his gentle, unstirred voice, “Have Faith, Missy. Believe that I have a good plan for you. Hold on to the words I gave you.” And then I would go back to Faux Faith. Repeat Cycle: for 2 years.
So what’s the answer? How do I avoid Faux Faith and walk in True Faith?
Here it is…..
Wait for it…… the answer is….. ACTIVELY TRUSTING GOD!
What the spam does that mean? It means if I wake up in the morning and I don’t have True Faith then it’s my job to GET THERE! Rather than ignoring it, I need to RUN straight to God….. And then walk away?…. Only if my heart is filled with his rest, peace and the KNOWING He’s going to take care of it…knowing He’s going to lead my steps to the right path that day….knowing He’s going to give me the strength for the task at hand. If I put it in His hands, walk away and then see myself shutting down…it means I took it back!!! So then I need to run back to God and put it back in His hands… For how long? ….FOR AS LONG IT TAKES!
I will warn you, once you discover a root of fear in your life, it will be amazing and then it will be a battle! You will wake up in white water gasping for air. But you know, it’s ok….because it’s sign YOU’RE ALIVE again! Floating in Faux Peace only puts your life on hold and you’ll have trouble hearing the drivers say, “You’re going the wrong way.” It’s a path that ultimately leads to chronic boredom and the death of dreams.
So True Faith means staying heart-to-heart with God and trusting him to lead you out into the deep water….a place that’s over your head and impossible for you to navigate in your own strength. He knows the way….Trust Him. Don’t let fears hold you back from your life’s adventure. If you’re in the white water like me….then I have this to say…. “YOU’RE GOING THE RIGHT WAAAAAAAAAAY!”
I believe God wanted to make sure I got this message so He told the angels, “Ok it’s going to take Missy a while to get this so we’re going to stop down in a very special place. We’re going to plant a garden, cook, hang pictures on the wall and fill her life with love and friendship. We’re going to use every bit of this time and we’ll wait because I want her to be free. I have a pearl of wisdom I want to make sure she gets.”
This is the beautiful picture of God I have to share with you today!
I pray today God would show you a beautiful picture of his love for you! I pray He would set you free to really LIVE. I pray He would give you the courage to wake up and swim!
Love and Hugs,
PS: I had a new revelation about relationships! Sorta like how God showed me how our culture tries to fit BEAUTY in size two skinny jeans. There’s got to be more to it than that. Well, he’s showing me a bigger picture for relationships! God is not limited by our limitations and how we define Love through relationships. I HOPE to write about it soon.
PSS: Before I published this I ran it by my dad. He told me he saw a bumper sticker today that said, “Feed your faith and you will starve fear.” Good One!
PSS: The picture was provided by my talented and beautiful cousin Aimee Junnila. Check out her stunning pics: http://www.AimeeJunnilaPhotography.com & http://www.AandAphotos.com