With failed attempts and dashed dreams I find myself hesitant to hope for God’s best around this next corner. Caution is taking the place of faith. Caution is one of those words that can be rationalized. It sounds balanced and smart. While ‘balance’ and ‘being smart’ are good things, I believe the “caution” I’m experiencing is a mask for fear and defeat. I’m not willing to actively -believe- (believe that God has a good plan, plans to prosper me and not harm me, plans to give me hope and a future…) like I did before so many back to back setbacks. There are so many scriptures that talk about not fainting at the end of the race…and words that remind us to Press On. I feel like I’m fainting into a numb, cautious mode. But when you spell it out….what good does this do? Why not have faith? because I’ve done this so many times recently…I put my heart and soul into work that failed. Why not believe? Because maybe God has more of a so-so plan for me this time. I’ve been so blessed before …maybe I’ve used up all my “blessing and favor” cards. Why not hope? because I’m emotionally, spiritually and physically drained. What happened to me???? Rather than waking up with an open heart towards God, wondering where His adventure will lead me….I let TV console and entertain me. Has it worked? Not at all!
So today, I choose to get back on the horse. I choose to throw “caution” to the wind and BELIEVE! Believe that God’s plan for my life is good! It’s good TODAY no matter the circumstances! There’s beauty for me to experience TODAY even in the midst of a murky, confusing pit. It just depends on what I choose to see! I see this “pit” as a cocoon! Let’s believe for things we don’t see yet! Let’s see the beautiful wings of a butterfly emerging from all that’s holding us back! Let’s be irrationally thankful! Why not? Being cautious with my faith has only given me the sense that life is somewhat within my control and five million zits on my face!:)
Don’t get me wrong, we may not be able to get back on the horse without God’s strength…we shouldn’t event try! But when we are weak, He is strong! So, God, I pray today you would give us strength to simply -look- in your direction. Give us strength to listen to what you might be speaking to our hearts. Like a trainer that says “give me one more push up” …God…give us strength to BELIEVE one more time! One more day! Today! There will be more to come …but today ….Lord …one more time! c’mon …you can do it! Don’t look at the long road ahead …let’s just give ‘one more’ Today! We can do it! “We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us” Lord, don’t let us faint at the end of a race. We’re asking Lord. We need you! Thank you that your word doesn’t change. You don’t have a so-so plan for us and we can’t use up our “blessing and favor” cards. Your mercy is new every morning! Help us to throw all those words that are keeping us back into the abyss today! Let’s see those words as the enemy and not you! Thank you that you are a Good God! Thank you for your beautiful adventure! Thank you for giving us eyes to see it! Thank you for giving us strength to get back up and ride…..
Love and Hugs-
(My sister directed me to an Oswald Chamber devo that is so good! I placed it in the comments)