Psalm 18:32: It is God who arms me with strength and makes MY WAY perfect. (36) YOU BROADEN the PATH beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn. Psalm16:11: You have MADE KNOWN TO ME the PATH of LIFE. Psalm 23:2: “He leads me beside still (quiet) waters. He restores my soul. He GUIDES ME in PATHS of righteousness…”
I went for a run a while back on a street congested with new construction and a long line of traffic. I laughed when I saw the sign in the picture “Traffic Calming Ahead.” Maybe the Sarasota traffic division had a meeting and discussed a new “Zen” campaign for road signs. I posted it on Twitter to share the laugh and went on my way. I certainly didn’t think this was a “spiritual” moment. However, on this pursuit of True Beauty I keep discovering God’s sense of humor. He speaks in creative ways and I’m always surprised to think of God as being funny! Isn’t that something we find attractive in another person, though? But we think of God, the Creator of Beauty, as being beautiful in the sense of sweeping snow capped mountains or the gentle ocean waves at sunset but not the words on a road sign that could end up on Late Night TV Shows. That’s on our level! It seems too real…too down to earth.
So, later that day I called my mom for prayer. I am facing a new round of changes and I need to let go of a few important things like my HOME! Upon moving to Sarasota, God gave me this word in Psalm 16: “Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you made my LOT Secure. The boundary lines for me have fallen in pleasant places.” I LOVE it here and I felt it was safe enough to plant myself for a good while. I hung pictures on the walls and decorated every room. It’s a big step for someone who moves around a lot. But the past year, my lovely, safe haven has become a giant financial burden. I’ve been holding on for dear life because I thought God said this was a secure place. I didn’t think I would have to let go of it. So I’ve been waiting on God to come through with a plan that let’s me stay here and I think God has been preparing me to leave. Things have been a little murky lately as I’ve been coming to terms with this. I recently agreed to just Let Go of it and it felt like I exhaled a year’s worth of worries.
I always hear people talking about how it’s easy for a single person to move. “You’re young, you don’t have a family to worry about…you can go anywhere…” But let me give you the perspective from a single, young-ish…ok ISH….person who’s had to move a bunch of times. A single person’s family becomes their community, their church, small group, boyfriend, even co-workers. So when a single person has to move…they lose their family. I would feel so blessed to move ANYWHERE with my family! While I know God is leading my steps, I’m not facing easy decisions. There have even been misunderstandings with God. So what do you do when that happens? Call mom:)
I made the official decision to move out of my house and God opened a door for me to stay in Sarasota. It’s a miracle but it’s still a step out of my comfort zone. My mom told me she had a peace about this move and she prayed God would give me road signs along the way so I would know I’m going the right way. Wait a minute…did she just say ‘Road Signs’? I just spent my day snickering about a road sign: TRAFFIC CALMING AHEAD. Whoa!
This is why the adventure of God is so thrilling. The picture God wanted to show me started coming in to focus like the directions on a treasure map. So here’s what I’m seeing: I think the last few months (even year) have been murky and often confusing. It has been hard. Heavy. I believe this is a month of marked change. I believe it’s time to take a few steps forward….out of our comfort zones. I believe the ‘traffic’ is the busy thoughts mixed with a HEAVY daily grind. There has been “construction” so it has been especially annoying and slow. It has been hard to move forward. Traffic CALMING ahead: I believe this is a calming of the mind. Clarity. Focus! I believe God is leading us forward into new territory and soon we will begin to see things more clearly. Without the traffic and construction it will be easier to move and see where you’re headed. The work you’ve been doing that hasn’t been going anywhere …will start moving again.
So right now as we begin to move forward ….even with a limited view…God wants you to know “I AM with you!” You’re not alone. Clarity is coming.
A few weeks ago I was writing my prayers out to God in my journal. A new age friend of mine had pointed out, in her words, that I had “circled things with negativity.” What a profound picture! She was right. There were cities and careers and things and people I had circled with negativity and fear. I’m usually a pretty optimistic person but …wow….I couldn’t help but see these circled areas. It’s ok to have an opinion and not really like something, but she was right…. I had definitely done the circling! So I started praying about this and asking God to wash away these circles of fear and negativity. I asked him to forgive me and I sent Love and Forgiveness and Peace to each one of these areas. Then I got to ME. I asked God to wash away the negative circles I had drawn around myself. Wow…I hit a nerve and the tears started flowing. I prayed (and discovered), “God I’m so disappointed in ME…in myself…please forgive me and help me to forgive myself…I send Love and Forgiveness to myself. Please wash the circles away and set me free.” I spoke in the third person just as I had done the others, “I send Love and Peace and Forgiveness to you, Missy…Peace to you Missy…Peace to your tender heart. Grace to you Missy. Then I started praying the words God gave me to hold on to and it seemed God started speaking directly to my heart, “You are sought after, You are on a path to be a bride, your nets will be filled with fish and you’ll see you have a reason to rejoice! If you could see what I can see….you would Rejoice. I give you permission to calm down, to smile, to be happy…your life is going to be blessed once again….you’ll never be alone…I am your Friend…I am your Healer….I am your Safe Haven…I am your Love…I am your Helper…I am your Leader….I am your Partner….I am……I AM …..” And then I sensed God speak this profound word, “I AM …I am the Great I AM….and I AM…………with you.” The giant snow white capped mountainous beautiful creator GOD ….is with me. This ‘big’ God is with the ‘small’ me in a very powerful and big way! This BIG God is so close …close enough to know our sense of humor…close enough to know you and BE…..with you.
Wow God thank you for being with us….thank you for leading us to a Path of Life! Thank you for ‘making known’ this path. Don’t let us forget the only real security we have comes from You and not the good gifts you’ve given us. Help us to put our eyes back on You. Thank you for leading us into the beautiful adventure with You….the path of LIFE.
Love and Hugs to you….
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